... of confused minds and feelings...

Current State: Foggy Brain

(I don't want to be the the kind of person who throws away eternal ramblings about simple things. I only started this blog as my way of expressing out feelings and thoughts that I cannot keep to myself else they will fester and grow deep down and threaten my most precious sanity. Only when the feelings get too interesting will I ever try to write it down and pour all that i can out so I may deeply sigh before I sleep and think that I am not alone in this).


I have learned in rather short years that there are people around you who will just do their part of messing with your life and that if you get too affected with it, you'll lose the game you never even imagined that you got into.

In the process you'll just have to learn how to deal with it although it's difficult to do so when these people are quite persistent. I find myself reading back to advices I've given friends and try to follow them but God what a failure i can be sometimes.

So I practice to lighten up things, laugh about it and try to find pleasure in it even though at times it's just too fucked up you won't know how to push through. I try not to hate people (egocentric that I am)... unlike before... i think that maybe... maybe they're just more messed up inside than the internal bleeding they're trying to inflict in me and then then my brain cells will conclude that i should understand them as much as i do myself.

(Note: I purposely did not get into details)