red alert

why do gurls need to suffer from dysmennorhea?

why do we even suffer at all, every month?

i hate it.. makes me weak.

darn it!

why can't they just wait?

my brother has gotten his girlfriend pregnant.. AGAIN! now my mom is forced to let them marry.. with her having to sacrifice. she is going to fund it.. well that's if she can find a company where she can loan...

i pity her and i hate my brother. an irresponsible brat!

overtimesssssssss

that's my dream laptop... and the given purple dark chocos...

that picture was taken during our work overtime yesterday.. we went home at 11:30 last night and still have to come to the office at 8 this morning. it was exhausting but i i love working with friends. im gald they were asked to help.

i was trying not to get stressed last night but it really pissed me when the person who volunteered to get me home was showing that he's in a not-so-good mood for having to wait for hours. it made me want to resume my plan of renting a room here in basco.

the boss left today... i got to go to mass. it's mama mary's day so its a mass of obligation.

i have to get home early.. rest... sleep... hibernate..

my new fun friends!

one thing why i love my new job... i got new friends and they're fun to mingle with. they're nice, intelligent and helpful! no one is above one another, no competition.. there is just work, fun and friendship around us. love it!

i'm thankful i have young work mates, we can bond and connect.

this picture was taken on a holiday. we cooked and ate out. that actually is beside a beach but the sun was still so high up so we looked for a shaded area and ate.

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haypi bertdey my love..

deviating from the cause of holiday

we were supposed to be in sabtang! (friday, holiday in commemoration of ninoy's death)

but ryan didn't want to go and opted to join his class for a picnic at disvayangan... so we decided not to go to sabtang, instead we ended up surprising joy baldomar at her house in itbud.

it was fun and fulfilling. we brought with us a dressed chicken to cook, but when we arrived we hit the sea at once to gather 'abung' for lunch. there were four of us, waldo, ara, leila and me plus joy. lei and waldo were first timers, didn't really know how to find those rich in iodine 'abung', (smaller versions of tahong)

the place owns a magnificent view... (pictures to follow)

we got back to joy's house after an hour and started cooking. lunch was delicious and everyone was so ganado... i cooked spaghetti for snack and we ate it all, superb deal! im good haha.

we drank matador and got home at around 9pm..

we're sorry ninoy for not even thinking of you when we were given this holiday, but we love you though for being a dignified hero, husband and a father... chenez!

but as i try to cheer up...

do i really deserve losing 4000 bucks?

that was from my first salary and i was about to deposit it in my landbank account to add to my savings. im planning to buy my own laptop by december. but i guess it wont happen now. maybe faith is against me buying my own laptop. i hate life.

i was so trusting that i left my belongings on my table which is unfortunately located just beside the door so that everyone who passes will have a chance to see me. maybe the saying is true that people are only honest because they dont have the chance to steal... and i gave that theft a chance by trustingly displaying my belongings.. damn it. that money could've gone a long way. kung kelan naman talaga i have the chance to help my family saka pa nawala. i was starting to help, natikman naman nila kahit papano but the one that was supposed to stay with me na e nawala.

its sad.. and so damn frustrating! 1thou na lang talaga natira, i left that at home because i set it aside as my allowance for the rest of the month.

the question now is... tataba pa ba ko nitong konti na lang ang pang merienda?

i try to cheer up

job isn't really promising right now... we started with the 8thou + aca pera, then to the possibility of getting the secretarial position during the application process... now that i'm here she started with possible intructor as a starter position... and then the imposibility of getting the college sec position because i do have to finish a masterals degree. and then lastly, a 370/day contractual plus honorarium for teaching... it did slowly went down the drain eh...

but i try to cheer myself up... you know nobody starts with the high position. it just have to start from the lower ranks. so hegel... SMILE.. there's hope and you are good. the star is not that very far.. ^_^

THE IRONY

as i start a new contenting job... the used-to-be happy and gay ICC family was turmoiled by our egoistic parish priest. he's a spoiled priest and he wants all the choir activities and decisions to pass through his so called office. it wouldn't be a problem you know.. had he told it to us in an acceptable manner...my leadership appetite would not have been ruined. instead he chose to shame the group by talking to us in a meeting wherein his feet was high on the armchair while scolding us. he's too blunt with no reservations and never accepts his wrong.. always with better explanations... he's hateful.. grrr.

anyway i wont leave the choir... he's not whom i'm serving.

the new job

i have moved... changed direction... turned to a brighter side.

since july of 2009 i started as an assistant to the college secretary of the batanes state college. i actually didn't apply for this job but for some lucky circumstances i was chosen to take the probation period for eventually becoming the college and board of trustees secretary. the probation period as the college president told me will take five months or 1 semester. i really really hope i can do this... salary grade 14 is not bad eh? hehe...

well as you know i was previously the tourism operations assistant at the provincial governor's office but that was in a job order basis that has to be renewed monthly.. well atleast here i'm one step higher as a contractual with 4000 addition to the wage. not that bad for someone working in batanes.

i'm actually happy here.. more of contented than gay hehe. but this will do.. i i will make it work. aja! i'm still a lucky pretty girl hehe... may God always guide me to be a better worker and a servant.