My Grudge

I don't want to keep grudges... they tend to eat me up.

But then...
how can you forgive a person who you know fooled and is still fooling people around
how can you forget the issues he turned around so that he
will come out as the holy one and the others become the evil ones...
how can you learn to free yourself from the trauma he brought
when he keeps on coming back and acts the way as he has always been....

          confident to the point of arrogance and the lack of concern for others

in the end... i fear...
for my faith, that it will become selective
for my friends, that they might be blinded and become victims
for my family that they may become the recipients of a renewed wrath from this air-filled minded man

I pray... I do...
I do wish this lump I'm having will just melt away
But there's something that is keeping me from doing so

Maybe until I find repentance in his actions
Maybe until I find admission in his eyes
Maybe until I find the change in his whole being

Maybe, maybe then... I can forgive.